my friends have all detailed junior year to be the most Traumatic Nightmarish experience of their life. online posts do NOT paint it any better
i didn't remember any of that advice when choosing classes. i basically forgot what academic pressure felt like during the summer so now my schedule looks straight unhealthy. it's like if you cranked the volume button to the max and then hit unmute
i thought taking AP european history last year was just SO easy peasy lemon squeezy. so this year, i decided to take THREE AP classes. cuz duh it will be just a piece of cake (it will not be). on top of that, my first three classes are all math-related in some way. i could feel the negative energy in the classroom... i questioned if pursuing engineering was right for me
however! i am not dropping out of any classes. evidently, i do not make good decisions for myself
other things! my school merged our lunches, so there is now only a 30 minute period where almost 2000 students have to brawl for food. the lines are obscenely long. not only will i deal with the crushing weight of my classes, but i also have to fight my classmates for sub-par chicken sandwiches... i think i'll start bringing my own food
and on top of that MY SOCIAL CIRCLE IS STILL IN PIECES
PREDICTION: uhh i'll be okay probably
i said i'd be more active on appleyue but good golly does this year look scary
SO. my older brother invited me with him. i accepted cuz that kind of opportunity comes Once A Blue Moon. i was still worried about it though. for ONE, conventions have tons of people and people make me Anxious (but i feel like that all the time so whatever). TWO, what if i wasn't nerd enough... it's really silly, but people always talk about anime becoming mainstream and complain about 'Normies' and stuff. i've grown up with that sort of stuff, but what if i walked in there and felt like a total outsider?!?!? idk... idk...
well. here's the things i actually did (again in a list like my last blog post because i think it's a better way to format some things)
- stared at fancy anime figures (GOT ZHOU MIKU!!)
- prepared a ghibli no-face cosplay. wore it for like 20 minutes before i realized i wasn't built for the heat
- definitely got some new disease while being shuffled around in artist alley. recognized some artists tho!!!
- was too scared to ask cosplayers for photos until the last day of the con. then i manned up and by the end i had way too many in my phone lol
- gained a new respect for vtubers (strangely)
- met some famous people (cosplayers, streamers, bbno$??)
- yum yum yum tried new food
- discovered new shows
well ANYWAY, my experience at anime expo Probably wasn't Too special in comparison to others but i still ended up having a ton of fun!!! some posts online say there were Wacky incidents or weirdos walking around, but i didn't encounter any of that! whether thats something to be relieved or disappointed about, i am not so sure. like... the convention wasn't straight up RANK like people made it out to be (lol) and the people attending were really nice. the merchandise available was also so kewl...
in the end... i feel more confident with talking and managing my spending. new life exp!!!!!!
would i go to anime expo again... probably. i had fun!! it wasn't anything like the horror stories!! But i'd have to bring a bajillion dollars next time though because GOOD GRAVY everything costed MONEY
anyway, i ended up disappearing because #sophomore year of high school started and i decided to (ugh) focus on my education. IN SHORT: sophomore year had some really high highs and really low lows that averaged out into being an alright year. some highlights:
1. i got all A's in my classes because i am an academic beast.
2. i took my first AP level class (european history). it was my favorite class and i actually loved going to it everyday
3. experienced huge fomo OH MY GOD
4. I REALIZED that people actually know me. for a long time i was very insecure and i really doubted myself and if i really... existed in other people's brains. in reality, i became closer with a lot of people and made new friends. what a world right!!
5. MY CLOSE CIRCLE OF FRIENDS WENT KAPLUT!! it was particularly rough. when i brought this up to my older friends and siblings they were all like "seems normal for high school" ????
6. i used the school restrooms often and there were always people crowding up the space. typically, they were vaping. i thus developed a hatred towards it. i vowed to never vape because i never wanted to be so annoying in my life (oh also for my health ig)
there's more, but it's all very generic American Public High School Experience. it seemed an eventful year while experiencing it, but looking back it really felt like a big blah yk
as for things outside of school... i'm starting to get into more anime and games. i started watching the apothecary diaries. i played katawa shoujo, the walking dead series, needy streamer overload... others. i'm currently playing amagami and i plan to watch amagami ss when i go through all routes!
anyway. CONCLUSION: my junior year, i'll do everything right this time!!!!!